It’s a challenge to stay positive some days.
I woke up feeling optimistic. Another day, another possibility. I got much needed cleaning out of the way–had to mop because I haven’t “really” been here. I’ve been in the setting of my manuscript and last night I got a good look at MY kitchen…
Around the time everything was in good shape, I started to feel that creeping restlessness– a perfectly normal and infinitely irritating byproduct of a long time spent hoping and waiting–so I went ahead and let loose my frustration on the treadmill. Was playing the Ipod LOUD and um, got lost in some rock star fantasy…
and stayed on that thing an hour and a half! You should see the way I’m walking now. The pain! (But damn I rocked hard and well!)
So… everything is done and I’m ready to jump back into rewrites and unfortunately, I decided to surf first to see if anyone had news. I stumbled on the news of Harper layoffs. That frustration came flooding back. Hard.
It is very hard to remain positive these days. My family is dealing with tough personal issues and the world of publishing feels pretty shaky. There are days where I do feel like stomping around and yelling. Yes, I’m thrilled that I’ve been producing work, that I’ve signed with a wonderful agent–but man, MY TIMING KINDA SUCKS, EH?
But it’s not all about me here either. There are a BUNCH of us in this position and I can’t imagine what it must be like on the other side with all those pleading voices creating a constant cacophony. And to hear of yet more people losing their jobs? I have a LOT of family hurting in the same way.
Sometimes staying positive takes a fight. But I’m going to keep working out, staying strong for it because I’m certainly not ready to throw in the towel.
So, I’m off to get that much closer to finishing my book and to baby my poor, wobbly legs. 🙂